Wait. I have to clarify that I go from being sick to my stomach with guilt and sadness to being overjoyed that when I'm free of this, I will be FREE. I get waves of pure happiness and hope and it's unbelievable. I find myself smiling and looking forward to the rest of my life. I just have to take this next terrible step. I wish I had one of those hot tub time machine thingys. (those are real, right??)
I think I'm leaving soon. No, wait. Know. I know I'm leaving soon.